Haven't been here for a looooooong time! Am i striking back? not really... well i think i'm not updating this site anymore. if you'd like to see my new stuffs (wallpapers, artworks etc.), please visit my another site Trashion Art.
I found it's quite difficult to write a journal her everyday or even once a week. so... i think i'm not writing here anymore. Who cares anyway!

Coooooooooool! today's weather's just cool! i luv it so much! i wish everyday's weather could be like that!! The 2002 fall/winter Haute Couture fashion week is kicking off this week! i'm so eager so see it (just photos), you know, i've been waiting since the last Ready to Wear fashion week which was held 3 months ago! i just can't wait anymore... i expect some suprising stuffs in John Galliano's show, i bet it must be a great show! his clothes are not really beautiful, sometimes even seem a bit unorganized, but who cares, they'r just suprising and fun! seeing his shows is always have fun.
Really hell bored these days... yesterday i downloaded many video! a couple of episodes of Power Puff Girls, movie Legally Blonde, Lord of the Rings, Birthday Girl and some MVs. my comp has no more space left and is full of video now!
still, i'm bored... i want a job, i want to work, all i want is to work! i hate being that free, i'd love to be busy, it'd be great if i can as busy as hell! Only the feelings of being busy can kill the bore. i want to work...
by the way, i've made some wallpapers these days, but i didn't put them here (i have no more space here). please go to my new site to view them.

this summer holiday is just hell boring... i've been staying at home almost a week (haven't go out at all!) and just stuck on the computer like 24/7. my mom always says something like "hey, i really think you should go out and have a "normal" life" and i'll say "i know i know, but where am i supopsed to go? what am i supposed to do if not on the computer? i've no money and it's damn hot outside!" yea, i've no money, well i actually don't want to spend even 10 cent! i'm saving money to buy my dream digital cam CoolPix 5000 =) ya know, online is the cheapest way to kill time.
anyways, these days my life is just crap! i just can't stand this kind of life anymore, but what can i do?
my life is just way plain, "why am i so plain?", that's what i've been wondering since the day i born (not kidding). i've asked my mom this question (i know i'm silly), and my mom was like "what's wrong with being plain? plain life is much easier than exciting life!"
damn! life is way short, it's just last for a couple of ten years, why is it supposed to be plain? i don't care if it's easy or hard, i just want some excitement! you know what i'm thinking? i'm thinking why i'm Cynthia, why i'm typing this crap, and why i'm so stupid to think of these silly things! it's weird, the feelings of thinking "why am i me?" is weird, i don't know, it's just weird, have you ever thought of this question? well i think i'm going crazy...
anyways, life goes on...

exciting day, because of exciting game.
i guess you might know what i mean. Brazil finally won the cup! well Brazil isn't my fav team, but i like them much rather then German =)
not only exciting football game, and also exciting TV game!! today my lil bro bought the PS2! cool appearance it has, and truely amazing 3D rendering! i've played a couple of race in Grant Tourismo 3, it was very exciting indeed! i'm not a fan of TV game anyway...
by the way, i just put up my newest web site, which i've worked on for almost a month!! it's the ever longest time i've spent on making a web site! Check it out, there're some wallpapers that i haven't posted on this site, and also some cool photoshop brushes for download.
here it is:
http://trashion.cjb.net

sometimes... i really want to start over again

i mean, my life...

i'm frustrated... completely frustrated...

1st frustrating matter: i still can't believe Italy lost yesterday's game... i've never thought Korea can beat Italy, at this moment i still can't believe the fact, they shouldn't lose it, those korean gus' performance and football playing technique are MUCH WORSE then italy! what they got to win the game is LUCK! hope they have no luck next time...
i can still remember that when the Korean guy got the 1st goal, i was like "oh my god, that's impossible!", and the worst thing is, they got the golden goal and won the game... at the point of time that they shot the ball in, i was seriously shocked!!and even wanted to cry... i didn't think hey'll lose it before the game, and at last, they did... that means i can't see Del Piero appears in World Cup anymore until 4 years later (he'll be a really mature guy after 4 years, and that i'll no more adore him!)
anyway, Italy is still my fav team!
*eagerly waiting for the England vs Brasil game*

2nd frustrating matter: project-linux.org, a site that hosts my current project site is closed... the connection couldn't be established when i tried to access it's ftp server yesterday, and i couldn't even access it's website... i thought they were just experiencing server's down. but i was wrong... today i still can't go to their website. and that i have to find another free host. project-linux offered php, my sql and cgi without any banner ads, i knew they'll be closed someday, cuz they didn't have any income from webhosting (i think), but i haven't thought they'll be closed so fast... damn... i don't think i can find any free hosting offer better then them... maybe i really should start toa ask for some sub-domain hosting...
again... CAN YOU HOST ME? if so, please contact me via email: cynthia1003@lycos.co.uk

Nothing updated lately...
since i'm working on a new site. this site is my first attempt of php, yea, almost all pages of the site are built with php!! yay! php rules!!! (i wish i can figure php out soon) and all the graphics are made with Photoshop (the graphics of this site is made with paint shop pro). well it looks and works fine so far, and still, i need a better free sub-domain host, which provides mysql, php and cgi... it's currently hosted by project-linux, and the loading speed is terrible indeed...

you know, i was sooo happy yesterday!!! Del Piero had a wonderful goal yesterday, he's the savior of Italy! YAY! Alessandro ROCKS! (Beckham is the best anyway)

yay! it's my lovely diary(in real life)!! isn't it cute? i drew it manually with airbrush.
hmmm... this cutie knows all of my secrets... lol

i also made a new link button with Adoba Imageready. well it's my first attempt of Imageready, i used to create animated gif with Gif Animator, an app that is extremely easy to use...